peace

my last entry

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i pirced my lip 2day..funny story.

i might re-doit next week

playing guitar all night..

those pills had a wierd side affect on me..

"between a blink and a tear,
Death blooms" =)

-sPUnK

i pick up my rusty board(ive left it in the rain soo manny times...) an sk8 2 alexs house around 10 in the morning. i play tonyhawks with him an then play ddr. i lost against him of course. then we sk8ed 2 south west. i walk into the office an an ask the lady 4 my reportcard an she says she wants my id. so i said 48 97...an she interupts me by saying she wants my picture id. so i said im not in summerschool, si i nvr got 1. an she looks at me like im an idiot an says what are you talkin about? you need 2 wear your id card through out the school year..an i said no you dont not in south west. so i asked her if i can talk 2 some1 who works in sw. year round, an not just in summer school, but she said no an told me 2 leave an stop bothering her.. so i asked alex infront of her if he needed his picture id 2 recive his r.p. an he said no , so we just left an sk8ed 2 alexs house an played ddr star fox n64, tony hawks 4, an orcarina of time. so we hed out 2 my house an practice 360 shove its, 180 front side kick an heel flips, an ollis an 180 ollies over a recycle bin. so then i come home an my mom takes me an my lil bro in2 the room 4 like 40 min. whyll alex is just siten near my comp. she gives me a lecture about whats the difference of snitchin an telling somethin important. i already know..an tells my bro some stuff she heard about. now we're discussing what 2 do. 1 sugestion is 2 go fishing...im not in the mood..id rather just talk an hang out or sk8.

:)
-sPUnK-





so, we ended up hanging out. not long after we see felli at my door so we let him in. so we go out side a sk8 4 a bit, practiceing ollies over my recycle bin. soon after head out 2 alexs again, an i tell my mom 2 buy us popsycles :). we saw meaghan there with shearl on g. wars. i played tony hawks with felli an went outside 2 sk8. felli an alex played basket ball, an i ollied there board.next we sk8 2 blue lakes an do tricks on this ramp an tricks off a ledge there. when we got back 2 my house my had a mini-ramp setion
an felli leaves. we also grinded this rail we made. we put it at the end of the ramp so you grind down it. alex lent his sis his cam, so there no pics, an my battaries are dead..plus i dont know how 2 put them on my lj.

wow... troy is a great movie. i recamend you all 2 see it if you havnt already :)

acchiles is awsome. an so is brad pitt.

( So its me an felli in the back of the pick-up going 50 an im holding my hair so it dsnt smack me in the face)

christian: haha what a girl
alex:haha
me: shut up alex,at least my hair dsnt match my underwear(lepard skin)

Soo, 2day at "work" wasnt so bad. played pool, went in the pool, an watched fuel(2morro on fuel some guy is gonna jump the grait wall of china live on a huge ramp!!)

well anyway. ive decided that when i grow up im gonna be rich..either invent a new soda or get big with our air band-christian on air drums, me electric air guitar, alex lead muted vocals, an felli the cow bell. 8]

Have a great day :)



p.s. umm, i only found out 2day that there was a hurricane...so for those of you that were uninformed theres 1 comeing!

-sPUnK-

the other day i went 2 sunset i saw amber whom i havnt seen in the longest :)






Happy 4th of july people.

why is it raining soo much this summer...i dont remember it raining this much last summer. hmm. i cant even go out an skate. well, anyway.

Hows your summers been!? hoes-(alex wrote that) hmm, i was looking foward to this summer, but its not as great as i thought it would be...at least not yet. cant wait till july! :)

-sPUnK-

so, 2day me an manny drank our coffe, an went 2 summer school. we cept trying 2 get mells attention...in the the thunder storm...there we were with an umbrella at her window, soaked...lol we also did other things. on there break i talked to matt an caroline. then went 2 mell an meggy:) so i walked meggy 2 her class an then hung out in the liberary until 6. so after summer school we hung out in front of school an talked... have fun with your umm new hair style meggy:)then mell came over. so, me,manny,mell, an unexpectedly my lil bro go 2 mc.donalds, an then my house. there, we just fucked around, played games, watched t.v.(we were cridicts) (that was sick! that guy pulling the car with his dick!) an talked about stuff.then mell went home, an soon later manny. this was a fun day. we're glad 2 make your day mell :)

WOW. . . M.J. is innocent...

-sPUnK-

So manny slept over last night. the cOOlest part of yesterday was probally getting that candy:) so, i wake up 2 the volume of the t.v....christian was watching cartoons , while manny an i were sleeping.............so we eat breakfast , an then me an manny are teaming an playing at our best 2 beat my lil bro at a tonyhawk game..damn, hes good. soon, im gonna go show manny how 2 skate ramps for "real"

-ApPLe-




p.s. oh yeah.............i got a haircut yesterday................hopefully it grows back at least up to my shoulders by the time school starts. i hate it, though some people like it like anth an jose, but noel says i look like a boy now...or a dyke..

Hmm, for some reason i cant remember what i did before i went to dianes house...oh well, it must not have been important. so anyway, (happy birthday noel) i got to dianes an realized i forgot to bring a game for the gamecube, because they told me to bring it..next, manny comes with his iorned hair an he tells me something(lol, sorry about that..) an then we're off to noels house. the ride was long because we didnt take the turnpike..when we got to his house, we met his family an took pictures an then went into his room. we watched a movi(i dont remember what it was called, but it seemed cool) an played guitar. meggy made me a purple bracelett, an wrote i love manny on my hand. so i added things. so she added penis. an i finished it an this is what it said" i love manny things about penis"...lol an i gave my swirly ring to olivia because she wanted it for some reason. she also wanted my shirt..lol a while later, we were on our way back to dianes house. in the car ride we played"telephone" that was..fun we also played "slap jack" and "thumb war" i beat manny an meggy or she beat me, i dont remember. an we also played some other one involeing our fists and hands. when we got to dianes, we just hung out. diane killed me in some game(i dont know what it was called) an i couldnt give olivia my shirt because my lil bro wouldnt lend me the extra one he was wearing...so some time passed an i was back home.

-sPUnK-

Today was a funday. manny an mell came overan we played soal calibar. then went 2 walgreens 2 get saftey pins for pierceing. mell an manny pierced my lil bros ear. an when we got 2 dianes house, mell pierced hers. then we went 2 pick up caroline, an watched 13, were my lil bro cept interupting the movi....then i beat mell 3 times in a row xD an then she beat me again. the scor for us is somethig like 3 to 100............then mell left an we sk8ed out side. and then.......We all go home.

8) -sPUnK-

Hmm, 2day was soo awsome. ill just say a few kewl things about it. skipping school right after 1st period and eating breakfast in mc. donalds. watching the lizzi mc. guire movie.., water and shaveing cream fight, and, uhhh. can think of them right now...
-sPUnK-

so, 2day was kewl. bryan comes over in the morning. then alex. we eat , an then head out 2 glades.

STEFAN IS THE BIGGEST FAG OF LIFE HE LOVES THE COCK AND THEN CHRISTAN CAME AND WE SKATED AND GLADES WAS COOL AND I TOOK OFF MY SEXY SHIRT AND BRYAN HAS A BLINDING WHITE BODY!!!!! I REALLY LOOKED HOT OH AND BRYAN AND ME PLAYED SKATE AND I LOST TWICE DAMN OH WELL PEACE OUT =)








the best part of the day, was probally throwing rocks and glass at each other...

2daay was a wierd day.. the 1st part i went 2 coral springs 4 some lunch with familly, then 2 Ryans 1st bithday party thing. HAPPY B-DAY! :)
-sPUnK-

Hmm, lets see... Today was BADASS!!

first i went 2 kaffe were i saw kewl bands, got beat up(mosh),got mulested by both sexes, an met an saw old an new freinds.

then, i watched a bootleg starwars movi my older bro got. XD!!!! that movi was sad, but kewl.

-sPUnK-

so 2day was fun. after school i walked 2 my house with noel 2 change an get my board, an then went 2 mc. donalds. next, we took the food 2 dianes 2 eat, an randomly saw sam on eins bike. so after that alex,ein,ang., an i went 2 als house 2 get his board an then umm. i forgot. so, anyway some time later i signed mells ball(wered you get it??) an then got introuble an went home. so i took a shower an the kewlest thing happened. i got a lil soap in my mouth an tried 2 spit it out an a bubble came out!! XD
it was soo kewl :) so my mom says shes going 2 publix so i went with her until we passed the gasstation an jumped out an hung out with my peeps. i also saw kevin(senior 1) , jessi, an that guy...i always 4get his name, but noel knows it. so then i came home...im grounded on the last day of school an 2morro, an 2 morro im supose 2 go 2 a sk8park, but hopefully ill find a way around this instead of just leaveing...theres got 2 b a better way..il find it soon.
:)
-sPUnK-

So, i was washin my dads car when alex(the gurl), louren, nicole an people come by. so she hands me like a slice of pizza, an i go get the smallest cup i can find an fill it with water an bring it out for them. so there were 5 people shareing a small ass cup:) lol it was very funny. then alexes freind starts chokeing on the sip of water that he takes an falls on the floor an dose the most random things.

mm, that all. that cheered my boreing day up :) thnx guyz :)

-sPUnK-

went 2 the sw show. was so kewl. an did stuff b4 an after. :)

i got a puppy 2day from alex. it is really scared , an crys . but still, it follows me everywere. its kewl. an when im not there it crys:) so anyway, after school me alex robert an meghan played hakisak. due 2 roberts anger against me he lost it in a bush when he threw it at me :) man, im the best at that game...
-sPUnK-


p.s. oh yeah, andrew had my sk8board and is gonna give it back 2 me 2morro :)

so afte dianes house, i walk in2 my room an my lill bro is pointing a spyder paint ball gun at me..andy gave it2 him..lol oh yeah, andys the best guitarest i know, or have ever personaly heard, an he taught me 2 new solos, 1 from dream theater. also, i took out my third earing, i think i might take out the 2nd one 2 , dunno..it gets annoying. an now its bleeding...

So right now im at dianes. me n kelief are here trying 2 be as quiet as posible an not bringing any atention to ourselves. diane an noel are watchin a movie. dont know which one. 2 day was okay..a few bad parts though, like my board being stolen, so im not going 2 felli's 2morro 2 sk8 at miami dade.. w/e 4 some reason i dont care as much as i would on any othere day, like for example if it were yesterday i'd be pissed. hmm.. not much else 2 write.
-sPUnk-

So right now its early release an im at dianes :)
-sPUnK-

Today was OH-SO Cool! after school i gave diane a random note, an noel an alex came over. we mostly played guitar. steven was there also. at around 5, we sk8ed 2 dianes an saw mell. at her house i skated in the rain an dodged rain drops.. mell played with an umbrella an this cream thing, while alex played tetress. and of course diane an noel did there thing. ;) lol then we watched a moviabout dianes childhood birthday at the age off 3. so then we were off!the show was kewl. i think the best 1 was the 2 girls singing, and the girl danceing. most of the time, id be collecting paper from alex(the girl), an laphin at the icecream man..also, im getting 2 "A"s from miranda once i write that paper.it was soo kewl walkin around school after hours. its different, an less noisy. me n noel also walked on the roof, we climed threw a window...lol the ride back was fun as well :)!!!!

--sPUnK--../,/m,jhk....oops...

Damb.......... . . . ...... . .
My dog ran away......... . . .. .........
Hmm....

-sPUnK-

So 2day, after school me n manny walked home in the rain. it was kewl, we cought up with alex n pplz an scared them...lol i also so christy , as we were walkin. we wondered what it would be lke 2 b struk by lightning.. so now were playin with my dog an other things..lol :)

-sPUnK-

Hmm...so me n luis skipped 2 go 2 both lunches ...a really dumb thing though...cuz i was in mirandas class 4 the begining of the period, an didnt show up for the second...hmm, would he notice?? anyway. in guitar class , about 5 minutes before school let out, andrew pierced my ear again. Umm, i think thats all 4 today.

-sPUnK-

Hmm...Another day.

Right now alex, bryan, christian, an i are gonna eat. Today was fun

:)
-sPUnK-

2 day was awsome!!! so much has happened.i also have a lot more bruses an cuts...alex bryan, my brother an i went sk8ing. we made a video of it 2. we also use a rail. the best part though, was at the end of the day , dunno what time..9? we went 2 mc. donalds. it was awsomE!!!(theres a reason 4 this awsomeess but you have to have been there 2 experience this..) :)! i think bryans sleepin over. Oh yeah, we got film of us getin caught by some security gaurd in florida christian :)

..:::..>????

--------------------------------------------sPUnK--------------------------------------------------





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So 2day was kewl. got 5 "A"s in conners class(the only A in the class...the other highest was a Bt) then alex came over an we talked, an played guitar an watched sk8in 2 get us i the mood. so i called bam 2 come over. we met up with him half 2 his house an went 2 the 3stair. we made a ledge out of this desk thing..then as we were goin bak 2 my house we saw some kids with a rail so me n bam sk8ed it doin 5.0s an board slides while alex went 2 mc. donalds 2 satisfy his hunger...ect.

-sPUnK-

I got a puppy! :) its like a few months old. !!
+__+



so anyway..i didnt go 2 school 2 day cuz it was "take your child 2 work day"...so i did other things.

-sPUnK-

Pymo!??...
-sPUnK-

2 day was awsome. after school hung out with anthan frnds 4 about 5min. then went 2 miller park 2 see some frnds. then dianes, were we played truth or dare, watched movies, hide an seek, sit on the baq of moveing icecream trucks, ...ect. then we walked 2 mc. donalds. an from there we walked 2 the 3 step.
there we sk8ed 4 a while(alex...your loseing your touch..)then went b-hind publix 2 see if alex can do the ledge an ended up just stayin back there. i made a ramp out of these heavy wood long crate things an bust my ass on it...scott manny an alex saw...lol then alex an that kid left. so it was just me scott an manny. we taked about "guy" stuff, an then walked 2 dianes 2 get mannys book bag. then walked 2 mine. it was soo kewl! as we were walkin it felt like there was no time. an the walk felt like 4 ever..but it was fun. when we got 2 my house every1 was tired an we went 2 my room an i did a demo :)..lol then talked an joked again. around that time, my bro, mom, an my dad came home from bjs with gummi bears an stuff.(gonna get those jelli beans:)2 morro ). then we watched tv. an i thought i lost my lighter again..but it was just on my bed..every 1 saw my sheets! THere rain bows(im not gay, i sware!) next, i went on the comp. an talked 2 noel. then we got bored an played runescape(a online comp. game(WERE SUCH DORKS!) he killed me once, an i killed him the second time with his pure..::whose the newb now!??::...lolnow in my tv room there's a bunch of half naked guys asleep...Lol/ hmm, what shall i do 2 them??(not sexually 4 those who think that way..) i have makers...an SHAVEING CREAM!!...hmm. NNNIGGHHHHHHHHTT....

-sPUnK-

Today was okay. After school, me an luis walked to florida christian 2 meet up with some1. it was some gurl he met at 1 of his shows. they talked about straightedgeness'. then her frnd came an we talked about why i was soo quiet , an then about how i should dye my hair..then we walked back 2 sw an he left, an i saw the other luis(the 1 that left the school)an hung out with him an brittney 4 a while.then i walked home...

-sPUnK-

Its only Anth: don't let them win because then we loose all our rights.
Its only Anth: if they take away our individuality we lose all together.
Its only Anth: we'll be like sheep going to the slaughter.
Its only Anth: it'll be easy to control us.
Its only Anth: so don't let that happen.
M0rBid sPUnK: LOL!


soo anyway..2day was kewl.alex came over. i was on the comp while they went with my dad 2 get some jacket..then me an alex went 2 bam's house. from there we went 2 his neighbors house an set up some ramps.i also met bams ex an frnds. we told jokes, an talked about some slut an ppl.(mell, you use 2 be her neighbor) we also put up some rails 2 grind. i cut my hand grinding down the "handrail"we made. we made a like 1ft ledge an from there you just grind down. i eventually landed it. i also did a 180 from one ramp to the other. then me n alex sk8ed back 2 my house an got ready 2 go 2 church. when we got there we like laghed the whole time. an changed seats. then alex asked if the preist ever got drunk from the wine x0 LMAO!..then we went out side an hung out 4 about half an hour . we listened 2 dianes i pod, an me n diane walked in circles around this thing..then these two kids came on skateboards. i tried out 1 of the boards. then we droped diane home, an we went 2 my house an did w/e. alex might leave soon though.

-sPUnK-

Okay soo this is how my view of yesterday went..over all it was really kewl. it started like this. umm, diane called an said 2 come at 4. then my lil bro. went 2 go see the pupies at alexes. then they both came over an i took a shower an got ready an we left about 4:30. on the way there we kinda ran/raced cuz it like started raining. when we reached dianes, we all sat down an talked. then scott came, an next i saw some big n tall person.. an said is that manny? i i was like "it is!"an me n scott ran 2 him. then we played truth or dare. alex licked noels nipple, scott squeezed a thorn branch in his hands, noel n diane had 2 make out(not really a dare.)an umm i think that it.then we went in dianes room were noel gott his hair straightened and people looked through dianes drawers, an she sprayed us with her perfume..then we all piles into the van. as we stopped 4 gas we saw bam on a bike with his frnds. we thought he saw us cuz he turned an came our direction, but then turned baq. we passed by alot of homeless ppl, an a big poster of marge(from simpsons) with straight hair. her pupil is prob. about 5ft. it was a big poster..then we all entered the mall an alex an i talked about sk8ing the 3 step we saw<> we saw parotts an snakes, an a zippo stand. then we went into a magic store, an i saw a jypsy-in-a-box an i planned on wasteing on a dollar on it on the way back(i ddnt get 2 because we nvr passed it again..) then we paired up an i was with manny , but lost him when he got distracted by a candy store...next, we went into a quick silver store an looked around. (noel ddnt buy the urse..LOL) then we walked a bit more until we saw the discovery store. after a while, it gott boreing cuz i saw every thing 2 c, an waited outside 4 a while , while they were amazed by a portable dvd player or something..then we sat by the ocean an looked an talked about the moon an the high tides an low. then we saw dolphins i was exited. it was awsome. there were like 3 or 4 of them! at first i thought it was a shark cuz all we saw was the long fin comeing out of the watter..also, i lost my lighter. i reached 4 my poket an couldnt find it was was like"FUCK!" that was the second time i lost it.. then we went 2 the food court. OMG! WTF!...they ddnt have any burgers...so me kalief n alex got pizza. we sat down an ate. diane would eat every 1s food exept her own.LOL< you should have got pizza..>then we went 2 get desert, an me alex an kelief went 2 get icecream. they took 4ever 2 serve me. an i said if he comes through those doors , zips up his zippers, an hands me my shake im leaveing..cuz he like took it with in the back..then we sat back down an were told about this poor jew..he came back an held out a 20 an said something..then we saw all these cops an wondered what they were lookin 4..we walked around again an stopped at this kewl store that sold patches an shirts. i got a dead kenedys patch. then we went 2 a glow store bettr then the 1 in dolphin. diane showed us this really kewl mirror that makes your eyes have like swirling lights in it.then we walked 2 the bath room an all the guys in there were lookin at me like i dont belong there..ass holes..then we waited 4 diane. an went back down stairs. we also found out that all the cops were lookin 4 was food.. they split up 2 look 4 food. it was like they planed it out or something as if they wee lookin 4 a bad guy or something...then we went outside an i wasted a quarter on a telescpoe that didnt work..then we went 2 a movi store an i got a lolipop. an they looked at comic books or something. around that time scott gott a call from his mom . the onwner of the store was a bitch. i 4gott who, but some 1 put a candy in the wrong plase an was all like"excuse me were dose that go?!" like in an atitude..then we walked back 2 the van once again squeezed in an told jokes. also, my bro goes , i think its time 2 give this back 2 u. an handes me my lighter an i was like OMG! as soon as we got there noels parents were waiting an said by . then scott went 2 glades 2 get picked up an ,we went in dianes house. we looked at funnythings on her comp until it was time 2 go. kelief got picked up an manny got a ride home from dianes mom, an alex my bro. an i walked hom :) i love walken home at night.. as we walked we planed our day 4 sunday(2day) an when i got home i looked at the time an it said 12:45. i found out the next morning my my mom changed the time early..at the moment, my bro , alex an my dad went 2 a store 2 get my bro. some jacket he wanted or somethin...whn they come baq were goin sk8ing, an then church with diane, alex might come. thats all..

-sPUnK-

Hmm, so 2day was kewl.it started lyk this. umm, i woke up an called alex 2 come over. when he got here, we skated 2 the fishing store and bought a yoyo(a type of fishing thing) and my bro jacked us all knives. then we went baq 2 my house an got our stuff ready. next, my mom droped us off were we would b fishing. it was a kewl spot, u can lyk just sit an look at the wierd fish n turtles, an hear this wierd bird that made a wierd noise..i almost fell in a few tymes..tryin 2 unhook my string in every thing itd get tangled in. we also climed down a ssteep wall of rocks 2 get across. i cougt 4 fish . then the fish god told me something that i regret..so, after that we walked 2 alexes house, an on the way my bro steped in dog shit..lol. we played with his pregnant dog. an we also went ontop of his shed :)we used a lader.

after that we walked baq 2 my house an they played t.h.u.g. while i went on the comp , an then it started raining..so i fell asleep 4 lyk half an hour..when i woke up, we talked 4 a while, an then went 2 go sk8.
after about 30min. of sk8ing , 2 realy kewl English sk8ters came. they sk8ted with us 4 a while an left. then we went in2 game stop..::i hate that store:: were christian an alex played things, an i just waited. next me n alex bought drinks, an my bro bought crazy bread.we ate at the 3 step.since they werent full, we went baq an bought more crazy bread drinks an these chiken things. we saw dianes dad walk by 2 times an waved at him. he waved baq :) ppl were stareing at us. we fliked em off.. i also talked about a show me an alex both saw a while ago about "happy Days ".then we tried 2 give away 1 bag of the crazy bags bcuz we were full but no 1 would take it..(ppl nvr trust teenagers) so alex decided 2 take it. as we sk8ted baq 2 my house we realized that we 4got the crazy bread an made jokes about how the lil ceasers ppl would put it baq on the shelf an sell it..lol. then we sk8ted an talked in front of my house until alex went home. soo, then i watched a episode of that 70's show..

-sPUnK-

2day was okay. i watched a movi i havnt seen in a long time..beetle juice. it was on sci fi..lol when i went 2 church 2 day i saw a few people i knew. includeing stephinie who i havnt seen since last year :)
-sPUnK-

Hmm, so much happened 2day. in the morning i got shot by my frnds paint ball gun..then i went 2 dianes, n from there went 2 the youth fair. it was kewl. i was 'pregnant so i couldnt go on any of the big rides.. in front of dianes house we had a convo. about whose niples were hard or some thing.. i dnt no y.Then we went an 2 glades we saw 2 aliens. then me scott alex, kelief n my bro. talked about stuff. then kelief left. then scott. what was kewl about walkin home this time with alex was as we were walkin i saw a green thing in the sky go by really fast lyk a firecraker or somethin. then alex told me it was a shooting star an 2 make a wish n not say it. hmm...ive nvr seen 1 b4. when we reached my house i gave him a ride home. then i came home an took a shower.

-sPUnK-


(..::WOW,..a shooting star..---*)

Happy st.Pactriks day... ::pinches 2 all not wearing green::

-sPUnK-

Hmm
2 day mell made me a danni philth icon...wow..i have an icon!
-sPUnK-

Invalid video URL.

hmm, nuthin 'kewl about this week end. but im not lookin 4ward 2 going back 2 school either...fcat
-sPUnK-

NO ONE...repeat: NO ONE deserves this. But there ARE assholes in the world that do this to people...so all of you better think of what you're doing to someone else before you even start some shit. Sometimes just a simple hello, a smile...just a hug can make someone's day a whole lot better. & hopefully all of you out there know who to go to when you need them. So everyone read below the stars, & copy & paste what you see. Cuz no one deserves this.
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Popularity Kills!-This is soo sad! and depressing just be nice and give some one a hug or smile today!

Dear Diary

They told me that I was the ugliest thing they'd ever seen, and i started to cry.

I went home and Jake called me.

I thought the day would get better.

But he told me that long distance relationships dont work out.

He lived in California, and I moved to Michigan.

Then I told him I loved him and that I missed him.

He told me that the only reason he ever went out with me was because was a joke, and he was

dared to.

Then he dumped me.

We were going out for two and a half years!



November 9,1999



Today got a little better.

I miss jake so much you dont even know diary!!!!

But he even changed his number so I wouldn't call him.

But the most hottest guy at school asked me to the dance!

And those prissy girls that said im ugly let me hang out with them at lunch today.

It was cool!!



November 10,1999



I'm crying right now... turns out that hot guy was a jerk at the dance he poured his punch on me,

and those girls ripped my dress and everyone started laughing.

Then my grandma told me today that mom and dad got in a little car accident today at work.

They're in critical condition, they might die.

I can't write anymore.



November 11, 1999



Todays a saturday... but me and grandma were at the hospital all night long.

Dad died this morning.

Mom is going to live, but she's crippled for her life.

I wanna die too.

while we were at the hospital grandma found out that she had cancer in her stomach.

She has to go on chemo-therapy.

I cant believe daddy died.

I'm crying more then I have my whole life.

I'm in shock.

I cant write...I'm too tired.

I need sleep.



November 12





Daddy is not dead!

He can't be!

Its all a dream.

My life is perfect.

Jake still loves me.

I can barely write.

I'm crying too much.

I wanna die.

Take me.

Bye...



One day later, Lisa was found dead in her basement.

She had hung herself with a yellow rope.

I am her mother.

My name is Maranda Gonzalez.

The reason I wrote this e-mail to all of you, is because no one else deserves what my daughter had.

Please remember that everyone needs love.

Everyone needs a hug everyday.

No one should be made fun of, or insulted.

No one deserves to die like Lisa did.

All of you please dont be the popular prissy girls that put other people down to make themselves feel better!

Please dont be the awful posessed date for the dance that makes people cry.

Now please do me the honor of sending this to as many people as you can think of.

So that way everyone will know not to be a jerk.

Thank you.

Everyone who send this will be rewarded with a random act of kindness this i promise you.

hmm..2 day was a boreing day. 1st, we watched a movi, then had p/e. it wasnt soo bad. talked 2 my new frnd :) thats kewl now that theres 1 more person 2 talk 2 4 2hours. then 5th watched a movi.

nuthin really happened in lunch.

after school was, umm..were i went through more emotions then i normaly go through in a week..
happy, scared, funny,hysterical,worried,smart, dumb,..ect.

-sPUnK-